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I'm back working on this blog. I deleted some probably completely useless blog posts. Recently I made a new site design, and two other sites, Seija; and Holland. I'm unsure what to be doing right now, though. I've been getting back into skateboarding, too. For the most part, outside in my garage, I've just been practicing ollies for a little bit, about 2 days now, at least twice every day and around an hour each. At my desk I keep a little tech deck I've had for a looong time, surprisingly I'm still not that bad. I only ever mess with it though if I'm bored or waiting for a message back. I got in a short but not-so-sweet fight with someone, and I don't know if I can look at her the same way ever again. I don't know, everything's too cluttered to figure anything out. I've been drawing more though, which is nice. Usually I like to just make quick Tegaki Draw n' Tweet doodles and I like how a lot of them look. As for productivity, that's about it and that's probably all it will be for a while now? I'm not sure. I want to get back into computer programming and go through another phase with HTML. I just need something to do - it's the summer, I want something to do late at night other than listen to music and masturbate, or whatever I do on your typical Saturday night. Nothing out of the usual, really.

I might just go on another hiatus on this blog again, and I doubt anybody will read this, but if they do, hey, you're cool.

Influences

I feel influenced by people I shouldn't be influenced by. I feel like a lot of people around me influence me, and a lot of people around me are assholes. If it weren't for many people I know, I would probably have a more innocent and less rude, mean personality. At first, I thought it was just a big joke, but now it's actually turned into me being a genuinely worse person. It's turned into a headache. It's ruining my social life, and I feel like I can't do anything to stop it. I apologize for the random venting on my blog, as most of the posts on here are very light-hearted. People who read this blog probably don't even know the half of it.
Sometimes I just wanna stop talking to people because I feel like they wanna stop talking to me. I feel like I know why people wanna stop talking to me. It's just starting to feel very...uncomfortable, to say the least. I'm starting to realize that people who don't usually talk to me are thinking that this is actually how I want to act. They think that I'm wanting to act like an asshole, but I think I'm just doing it as a joke. I go too far and act too smug against people I know, and sometimes I'll just go too hard on them, then feel terrible afterwards because I just basically "bullied" someone I know, someone who was probably a friend of mine.
These influences come from both in real life, and online, but mostly online. You know who you are, and I'm sorry if I somehow offended you with this. It's not that I don't wanna be your friend anymore. I'm sure most of you are fine with me directly calling you out, but I still won't because I feel too paranoid that I'll lose you guys as well.
I apologize if this blog post was very redundant with my word choices. These words just come out without any thoughts and I just press "publish".

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Bonus Stage

(originally written in 11/11/17 as a draft)

Since 2015, I've been watching and been addicted to "Bonus Stage", a 2003-2006 (i think) webtoon by Matt Wilson. He's still making cartoons, too, on his "Cartoon Drive-Thru" channel. And he still acknowledges Bonus Stage, too (i think). Why wouldn't he? It's one of his biggest webtoons. People usually like his older work more than his newer work, including me (sorry Matt).

This show is seriously one of my biggest inspirations, same with another webtoon called "nockFORCE" which I'll talk about another day.

If I had to pick a favorite episode, it would probably be episode 82, "Baby Ballface Must Die". If you're into early 2000s internet and webtoons, then you'll probably like Bonus Stage as much as me and a few other friends do.

Experimenting with Animation

Hey. I haven't posted on here in a long while, but I've been doing some experiments with animations. Here's one of an impossible -> 5-0 -> heelflip on some rail type thing or whatever.

Yea, I know, it's sloppy and it just shows the skateboard and not the person riding on it and actually doing the tricks, but who cares, man. I'll experiment more with these skating animations because they're pretty fun and kinda help me learn the physics and whatnot of skating. Hopefully soon I'll start making them look less sloppy, but I'm a little more determined on actually putting a skater on that board. I was actually kinda inspired by Rad Rat's old gif skateboard animations that I saw a long time ago as a kid and loved. Crazy how he went from his own little skate toons geocities site to having a big youtube channel all about skating. Today, I still think those animations look pretty alright.